falling in front of university.... :( :D

it was like a normal day...never knew that it would end up like this..
i was walking my head up and i was like i dont care are people looking at me or not..and then slip and im on the ground..it was really emberesing..people were laughing and staring at me like O.M.G and only after 15 seconds someone came to me to help me stand up...i think this might call the fall of the year...i felt terrible and my Ass really heart coz i fell on it..it was painfull but when i was falling it was so stange feeling..maybe its because i havent fall for ages...and i forgot how its like... anyway it was terrilbe...expesialy infront of uni people...
maybe the most imberesing day in my life... i felt so down..but one thing i can do..i can always laught after all this and remeber it like a funny thing... thats all me.. :) :) life is too short to worry about falling...

me me me ...

well here i am again..on my blog and writting staff :D :D and is staff i mean my thought... hope no one reads it..its boring go and read a book!!!
so day was active day kinda fun and little bit cold..
deleting a person from your life is hard but is it imposible? i dont get it how come can someone forget a person without any thought of him or her...
maybe its only me...
i wish there was simpile batton in our head like in computer like delet and thats all...or maybe sometimes restore it :D:D:D
i would delet so many things.. but to think a little u can delet a person bu someday he might come back... never know never know..like that movie eternal sunshine of the spotless mind...
i should be going i guess..soo good night my blog!! :*:*

nevermind nevermind nevermind!!

all our life we are waiting something to happend..
its like when ur too little you wanna be teenager...when ur teenager u wanna be adult and when u are adult u wanna be small again.. kinda funny but its true..someone can say that ull never know what u have until u loose it..so how come person dont see what does he have and see after its gone..
i have never thought about it..last few days was kinda bad..i never know i would someday miss school..can u imagine like place where i hated to go..where i felt like i was not belong to..and now i fell the same at university...
one my old friend told me that one day when ill get job and gonna be adult im gonna miss all this..i had no idea was what he talking about but i do now..
i dont know why im writing this and why im writing this is english... maybe it was written for my old friend but i somehow dont wanna send this..its like more i become closer more i loose him..i dont know where to stop..or should i stop amyway??
but dreaming is much easyer then to face reality and its not good...
yea yea i once fell in love in guy i never knew..it was like my crash for like 3 years..i still got the pain from it..i cant delet it like forever..i imagined that he was good he was kind ,smart and most all for me he loved kids.. but when i had to know him little better i felt like who is he?? no hes not what he was for me..he was just to perfect to be true and he aint true..
anyway that chapter of my life is closed i hope forever...
ofter all this i was afraid u fall for a guy..and still im..i dont wanna live again with this all dreaming staff..its kinda hard to know that it might never come true..
after this stupid chapter of my life im just lost..lost so much that i dont give a sh*t about guys.. okok only after sad movies which makes me more sensetive then i am...
and here am at my blog..little bit sad and over waiting for someone...
i hope this post i wount delet as i did the last ones..
i think ill now o to sleep..
good night and take care...

Emma Bunton Maybe